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hello again my beauties! how are you all? i hope all is well with you all. so, what's new with me you may ask? not much really, things are pretty much still the same. at the moment, still single, but who knows how much longer that will last. even i not dare try to foresee that. but things are going REALLY well for me in that department. if anything changes, you all will be the first to know.
now, yesterday i visited yadkinville, nc, for the first time. its a small place, just slightly larger than my hometown of hampton, sc. but i had the MOST AWESOME time while i was there. i was there from about 12 noon until leaving at around a quarter till 6. i'm sure i'll be back there again one day soon. so, i get back to charlotte and stop by wal-mart to get me a new pillow for my bed, because the one's i had were not doing me any justice. they were causing my neck to hurt. so, i get me one of those 'memory foam' pillows. i've only slept on it once, so i have no verdict on it yet. i'll be sure and let you know. maybe if i had a certain someone in the bed with me to test it out, i'd have an answer for you. why am i sitting here watchin american idol? who knows, but anyway, i'm off of work for the next few days, as the office is being renovated, hey you won't here me complaining. no grave yard shift for me on thursday, friday and saturday. so, i plan on chilling as much as possible. of if you ask me what i'm doing, i'll say...'flyin like a seagull, kickin like a mule, with more jams than a beatle from liverpool" lol why do some people have to live so far away from me? that f'n sucks
when i think about this person the widest smile comes across my face. and i get all warm and fuzzy inside. could i be smitten? that is a strong possibility.
see, i just ate some pizza, well half a pizza from papa john's and some cheese sticks...so niggeritis is trying to set in on me. lol if you don't know what that is, its when you get sleepy after you eat. lol but i'm gonna shake it off, its not time to go to sleep yet. i really don't know what to talk about, cause the only thing on my mind is this certain someone and i had better stop before i give away who it is, and reveal more than i need to right now. don't wanna jinx it. so, i'm xan, fly low, beat the rada

hello again my beauties!! how are you all? Me? eh, I'm doing alright! guess where I am....give you one guess. RIGHT! I'm at work. As if you didn't already know that. so, lets see what's happened since I last spoke to you all. First off, I ended up working late last night, I'm suppose to get off at 6pm, but it 8pm when I left here last night. Ok, so I'm REALLY tired when I leave here, not that I do hard work, it was just from having been here for 10 hours. Now, I'm on the way home, tryin to think of what I want to eat. Cause I hadn't eaten since I had breakfast that morning (strawberries and cream oatmeal, for those of you that want to know). And nothing is coming to mind. While I'm on the way home, I had brief chat with Dee and she planted an idea in my head...Chinese food. So, Chinese it was. Nothing fancy, just some pork fried rice and chicken wings. Alright, so I'm home now, eating, chatting online, surfing the net and if you know me...you know I'm watching Monday Night Raw. YEAH, I watch wrestling. And if you think that's bad, I have just two words to say to you...actually just two letters... F. U.!!! Then I started chatting with "B" last night. Got caught up in our conversation and bam, next thing I know, its like 1:30am, and I have to get up at 8am. So, therefore I had to end our chat .
Then for some reason I wake up BEFORE my alarm goes off at 8:05. I'm up at like 7:30. For the love of God, why?? lol Anway, I get up, take a shower, anyone wanna join me next time? Get dressed and have me something to eat, cereal if you're wondering, and check to see if I received any over night IMs, but NOOOO, I didn't have any. Ok, then, onward to my mail. Nothing exciting there, just some junk, that's all. ok, the time is drawing nigh for me to leave for work...brush my teeth, use my Crest alcohol free mouth wash, and I'm off to work. I get here and there is "W" and the new girl/woman..I think her name is "A"...not really sure do though. Any-who, I walk in and "W" goes, (speaking to the new girl and basically out loud) "there's Xan the Man. Yep, he's my man. He likes white women, dontcha Xan? (that just made me laugh)" Ok, now let get this in the right, um, context, for lack of a better word, she hugs me before making that silly question/statement. And yeah, I mean a REAL hug. So, she makes the question/statement in the transitional phase, you know, when you hug someone then your arms are still around each other, but you aren't exactly hugging anymore. More like you're standing there with your arms around each others waist's. I swear, the ladies at work just love me to death...see guys, it pays to be a gentleman. I used to get a hug everyday at work, from the "Slayer", but she no longer works with us. But I did talk to her Sunday, she's doing good. We were suppose to hang out, Sunday, but she lives like an hour and a half from Charlotte, so I can't blame her for changing her mind when she got home. Now here it is almost 4 o'clock, two more hours to go. And to tell you the truth, I really haven't done much of anything today. Just a few minor problems. And that's been it. I had lunch from Backyard Burger, cause if you all didn't know, Lent starts tomorrow. And you're suppose to give up something you like for 40 days. So, I'm giving up beef for 40 days. No more big macs for me. Who else out here is gonna give up something? Remember, it has to be something you like. Not just something you hardly do anyway. So, if you are giving up something let me know. I'd like to know what it is. Anyway, I'm gonna go back to reading my paper now, to make time pass by. I'll talk to you all when I get home. Fly low, beat the radar

What up B?!?!?!

Good morning peeps! I say morning cause its currently 6:12am, and as you may have guessed. I'm at work. Shocking, I know...lol. Anyway, its all good, its almost over with and I can go home. I had a good day yesterday. Although I meant to buy me some new pillows for my bed yesterday morning on my way home from work. SO, I call myself going to Big Lots (don't worry I'm going to Targe't or Wally World this morning) and I get to the one on North Tryon and Eastway, only to find ITS NO LONGER THERE!!!. Oh the horror of it all, lol. By then I'm tired and hungry, don't feel like going to Targe't or Wally World, so home I went, after I stopped and got me two sausage dogs. Ok, so I'm home now, eating my dogs and playing some RE 4, oh I've finished the game twice already now. Now I'm just trying to beat my time of 18 hours. And also get a new gun in the process, that's what I'm really trying to do. Ok, I'm also have two MARVELOUS IM conversations via Yahoo Messenger (side note, CONVERSATE is NOT a word). Having a very stimulating INTELLECTUAL conversation with "J" and a very revealing conversation with "B". Hey, I LOVE to learn and intellectual conversations ROCK to me!! Yet, talking to "B" and finding out things I didn't know was like...WHOA!! OH SHIT!! The Squirrel Nut Zippers are on!! Sorry, I LOVE modern swing music. ok, where was I...oh yeah, talking about my AWESOME IM chats yesterday. Let me just say that they are two PHENOMENAL PEOPLE!! Who I am totally looking forward to getting to know better.

Now, I'm contemplating what I'm gonna do when I get home....cause I won't be going to bed till about 4pm this afternoon. So, I have from 10 till 4 to occupy myself. Knowing me, I'll be playing RE4 and be on Yahoo! messenger.

Oh hell, there's my other song...Prototype by OutKast. I love that song, specifically what it talks about. Oh wow, I'm so ready to go that its not even funny. Cause, I'm pretty much done with my work, so now I'm just here....maybe I'll go play Jewel Quest. Who knows??? can't you tell I'm rambling...its called FATIGUE. I have it right now. lol But come 9:45 I'll all of a sudden have an energy rush. lol Gee, I wonder why? Anyway, I gotta go, got work to do. Fly low, beat the radar.

WHAT UP B?!?!

Wassup peeps? I'm baaacccckkk, and I'm pissed off! Well, not really, but it sounded good. Although I have been thinking about how I am, or who I am or whatever you wanna call it. And I've come to the conclusion that, I generally don't fit it....with other black males of my age group. I used to conform myself to fit in, be it around a female or male. An example of that is, if you were riding with me in my car...I'd change the station from what I normally listen to and put it on either 97.9 or 96.1, the two "black" radio stations in the Charlotte listening area. Knowing good and well that I normally don't listen to either one of those stations. You may catch me listening to one if something is on that I wanna hear. Otherwise my radio is usually on 99.7, a classic rock station here in Charlotte.

Now that doesn't mean that I don't like rap or hip hop or r&b or soul...cause I do. But I'm just really picky about who I listen to. I think that comes from me listening to so much rock and in particular classic rock. The use of "real" instruments has me spoiled I guess. I like to hear the actual instrument. I don't wanna hear something that was created and played from a synthsizer. Unfortunately most modern rap and hip hop, suffer from this problem. Thats why I like OutKast...they use real instruments, and they have something to say other than "how much money they have", or "how many hos or b*thces they have" . If you can rap about something other than that and make it sound good, then you've got me as a listener. I like Eminem too. And give me some Temptations soul anyday....

But this is not about music, this is about how I'm different and don't fit in. Lets see, I'm 31, thats right, for those of you that didn't know. 11/22/74, thats my date of birth, and I am every bit of 31. I may not look it, good genes I guess, but I am. So, when you look at the 18 to 35 year old black male, as a whole group...I generally don't fit in. I don't smoke weed, not saying that we all do, but a lot of sure damn do. My pants fit my waist, no they aren't tight, but they fit me properly. VERY rarely will you hear me utter any type of slang. I'm not a club guy, thats not my thing. I hardly ever watch BET. Or anything that is targeted at a "black" audience. Same thing for movies..."House Party" and "The Hunt For Red October" came out the same week. I wanted to go see "The Hunt For Red October". Thats not to say that "House Party" is not a good movie, it is. In fact I own a copy of it. Its like the things that would generally appeal to a black person first, appeal to me second most of the time. Again, don't confuse things...I love Girlfriends, I think its a great show. And who doesn't like "The Color Purple", hell I could almost do that movie line for line.

Now, don't get it confused. I LOVE BEING BLACK and GOD, do I love me a BLACK WOMAN. Don't even get me started on that, I could go on forever with all the good things I have to say about a black woman. But I'll save that for a later blog. Hold on, I'll get back to this, one of my ALL TIME favorite songs is on right now. Life By the Drop by Stevie Ray Vaughan. Ok, I'm back. I love football, hell most guys do, but sometimes I watch the NASCAR race, depending on what track they are on. To quote the Boondocks, I try not to have "nigga moments". But I guess that comes from how you were raised. If you saw your parents having "nigga moments" you can't help but have them when you get older, unless you make a conscience effort to avoid them. If you don't know what a "nigga moment" is, watch the Boondocks on Cartoon network on Sundays at 11pm, you'll find out then. Basically its acting stupid for no damn reason whatsoever. Or reacting stupidly to something that could so easily be avoided. Yeah, I DO have a backbone AND I have very bad temper. I know that's hard to believe for some of you that know me...but I do. And I mean BAD, but 99% of you will NEVER EVER see it, it takes a lot to make me mad. Sure, I get upset, I get frustrated, but mad...hardly ever. To quote Kid Rock..."I ain't no rough guy, ain't no tough guy, don't dress up fly, don't go out much..." but to quote another song by him, "you ain't never met a mother f*cker quite like me". In British slang, I'm what's known as a "one off" or in American slang a "one of a kind". I watch Anime', NO Anime' is NOT cartoons. Most Anime' is for ages 16 and up, unless you're watchin Hentai, that is strictly for adults only. If you don't know what Anime' is, you can catch some on Cartoon Network's Adult Swim. Shows like Full Metal Alchemist or Cowboy Beepop or Ghost in the Shell. I read Manga, those are Japanese graphic novels. I like videogames, but they don't control my life like they do some guys. The guys that would rather play games, then make love to their woman....you guys need HELP! I'd never put a game before my woman. I'm a computer all day at work, yet when I get home, I'm on a computer the rest of my day. I like mocha latte's with whip cream on top. I'm a democrat with conservative view, and proud to say it. I think women are God's gift to mankind, and should be treated with the utmost respect. I'm a gentleman. I still open doors, give you my coat if you're cold, wait for you to be seated before I sit, take my hat off in your presence and all of that good stuff. You may think its silly, I think its deserved to a woman. Or as OutKast said, "behold, a lady". I like strawberry ice cream, don't really care for chocolate. I'm the youngest of 4 boys. I'm from a small town in South Carolina, but I've been here in Charlotte for nearly 13 years now. I like to cook, although I don't know why, I had a cooking accident when I was in 6th grade. Yep, trying to cook hamburgers and burnt both of my thighs...although you can't really tell now, unless you're really looking hard...and if you're down around that area on me...is looking all you're gonna be doing? LOL Just Kidding!!! Oh and trust me, everything else between my things works VERY WELL. I'm a little shy, although not as shy as I used to be. The more I like you, the shyer I tend to be. Or either I end up rambling to avoid uncomfortable silences. But you know when you've found someone, when you can share a "comfortable" silence. When you can be with someone and just shut the f*ck up, and enjoy the silence between you. Cause when you meet someone for the first time, one of you tends to talk constantly to avoid these silences, just to make the other person feel comfortable....but that is another blog too.

I'm a one woman guy. I don't believe in cheating or being a playa or pimp or whatever you wanna call it. I don't care if its being thrown at me from someone else, if I'm in a relationship, then that's the only person I care about doing anything like that with. I'm not a religious person, I'm a spiritual person. I may get negative comments for this statement, but I think organized religion is for the weak minded. For the people that have to be told how to find their path to God. I, myself, prefer to find my own path to God. I would never say one religion is better than the other, cause I don't know...none of us do. So, like I said earlier, I prefer the spirtitual path.

OK, I could go on and on, but I'm gonna stop here. Hopefully this will help some of you understand me a little better. Maybe it will, maybe it won't. But I just felt like talking about it.

I had the most incredible night, last night. WOW!!! It was simply AMAZING!! If you could've seen me last night when I got home, I was acting like Tom Cruise when he was on Oprah the last time. lol Thats how excited and pumped up I was. It was freaking AWESOME. Hopefully more will come from last night. I know I'd like that.

as to have been able to spend wednesday evening (the25th) with two of the most BEAUTIFUL and SEXY women in Charlotte. i was out with Yahiko and Pixie, whom I had just met for the first time. WOW! she's something else...in a GOOD way. reminds me of a little hummingbird, she's got so much energy. very frenetic, loved hanging out with her. and as ALWAYS, anytime i'm with Yahiko, i have a BLAST!!! i guess the gods were smiling upon me that day to get to spend 3 hours with those two lovely ladies. not to mention how cute Pixie is. :-D, no fears Yahiko, you're still number 1. ;-) but i had an awesome time, looking forward to the next time this final fantasy trio gets to hang out again.

So, here I sit at work this morning...I was about to say tonight. I've been here since 2am, its currenlty 6am and I don't get off till NOON. Now keep in mind I worked from 2am to 10am the night before. Working nights is not a problem...its just that i got NO sleep. BUT I Loved the activities that I was doing, and the person that I did them with. Has a very special place in my heart. ALWAYS will, regardless of my situation (relationship wise, things will NOT change between us) And for you pervs, no we were not having sex, get ya mind outta the gutter. So, back to the topic of this blog,lack of sleep. See, I've been awake since 12:30am, Jan, 21...(sad day for me, thats the day my dad died) and it is now 6:10 Jan. 22. lets see, do the math that is 30 hours straight, no sleep or anything like that, so its a wonder I can even type straight. lol I keep dozing off while I'm typing this, but I can't fall asleep, I still got 6 freakin hours to go. OH JOY!!! I hope I'll make it...and NO, coffee does NOT keep me awake. I'm immune to coffee in that respect. hell, i've already had 3 cups half a 24oz bottle of pepsi. And yet I'm still fighting hard to stay awake. And now i gotta boosh, if you don't know what that is, see my neices (a pair of twins and their younger sister) dammit,i'm passed tired, I don't know what the hell I am. And if I had it to do over again...I would in a heartbeat. Because of this little proverb..."Make new friends and keep the old. One is silver and the other is gold." And she truly is GOLD...Hell PLATINUM!!!! LOL see what happens when you try to type when you're dead tired, it tends to ramble and has no direction. But its all gravy, cause I'm off until monday when I leave today at 12, no coming back to this place till then. GOOD. although it looks as if I'll be busy during the day again. Once again no sleep until later...and on top of that the NFC championship game is today at 6:30...I think I'll dvr it, I know I won't see it. but let me say this GO PANTEHRS!!!!!! YOU GUYS ROCK!!So, I'll watch it later and try to avoid finding out who won till i watch it. what the hell was this post about? oh yeah, me being tired..thanks for reminding me. Ok, let me stop rambling now. and if y'all see goober later on, tell him I said, "duh huh" he'll know what ya mean.

you know what I can't for the life of me understand....is these guys that have a live in girlfriend, that is just SEXY as hell. I mean, she's BEAUTIFUL both inside and out. And on top of that, she's a highly sexual woman, who loves sex. Yet, these guys go a week, 10 days, sometimes more WITHOUT providing their gf with any kind of sexual gratification. WTF, IS THAT ABOUT????? I just DON'T get it.... If I was in that type of situation, the only days we wouldn't do it, would be the days that SHE told me she doesn't want to. Cause I would be obliged to please her anytime she asked, as often as she asked. As long as I could keep it up I'm there. F*ck the dumb shit. And they say guys are always horny, I can't tell with the way some of these guys act. I don't know, maybe I just LOVE women too much. who knows....but I will say this one thing for me....FIRST AND FOREMOST, I AM ALWAYS A GENTLEMAN.

Why do I sense, benevolence
You stand tall at my great expense
Thick words of gratitude, what a price to pay
Stuck in my throat, I sell every word I say


Why does your world keep burying
Gorging much deeper, than it's ever been
Rubbing still harder, salt on my hurt
Licking my burns while I grovel in your dirt


You pity me with your tasteless gestures
Gratitude for kind
But your bludgeoned, intentioned objectives
Are screwing with my mind, screwing with my mind

But I don't want your charity
Twisting me round
I don't want your charity
Keeping me down...

why wasn't I there tonight? i was suppose to be there. i'm suppose to keep them happy. i didn't...i failed... damn that fucking sucks! and i know i'll be told its not my fault or don't worry about it or something like that, but dammit, that won't do. they were depressed. wanting someone to save them, and i didn't...

I've been biding my time
Been so subtly kind
I've got to think so selfishly
'Cos you're the face inside of me

I've been biding my days
You see
Evidently it pays
I've been a friend with unbiased views
Then secretly lust after you

So now you feel rusty you're bored and bemused
You wanna do someone else
So you should be by yourself
Instead of here with me
Secretly

Trying hard to think pure
Bloody hard when i'm raw
You're talking out so sexually
About boys and girls
And your friggin' dreams

So now you feel lusty you're hot and confused
You wanna do someone else
So you should be by yourself
Instead of here with me...
Secretly

So now you've been busted
You're caught feeling used
You had to do, someone else
You should have been by yourself

You had to do, someone else

You should have been by yourself
Instead of here with me
Secretly, secretly.


I know, sucks doesn't it.

What self mutilation are YOU?



You are RE-OPENING WOUNDS.
Synopsis: Most people have performed this at some
point in their lives, but it's the people who
constantly don't allow their wounds to heal who
are considered to "self-mutilate".
These people are often very detail-oriented and
notice the slightest changes in their
environment. They likely also are an excellent
judge of character.
Positive trait: Observant
Negative trait: Judgemental
Color: Black
Emotion: Anti-social
Animal: Wolf
Quote: "Stars, hide your fires; let not light
see my black and deep desires."

well, I'm sitting here at work, as I am so many time when I write in my blog. I've been thinking about my job, and I must say, I'm lucky to have the job that I have. For a couple of reasons. One, 75% of the time, I'm just here...one of the joys of being in the IT field. Another is, I get paid fairly well to do pretty much nothing for 75% of my day or time at work. And my favorite reason is (I'm letting the cat outta the bag on this reason) I work with some of the SEXIEST women in Charlotte area. But working with them is not enough...because they ALL adore me. Mainly because I am a true gentleman through and through. I flirt with all of them, I can't help it, its in my nature to flirt with a beautiful woman. The degrees of my flirting and the type of flirting I do, vary with each person. What I may do for one, I may not do for another. I've come into work before and had one of them say, "I love you, Xan. I really do." Caught me off guard, it did. So, I was like, "I love you too". That was "W" who told me that. Of course I'm not giving out names, in case they should read this. Then there is "B", who just has to give me a hug everytime she sees me...not that I mind And she too has given me the, "Xan, you know I love you" line too. lol I must say its quite fun working a place where you are only one of five guys. Two of whom are gay...so that really just leaves three of us to flirt with. Alot of what I do here, had a lot to do with my statement the other night on my blog...the one where I said, "I'm a badd ass mother fucker". Basically what I'm saying is I LIKE working here. Although there are some days when I don't wanna be here, like today. Because I may work with some beautiful ladies, but I mainly only see them when I come in or leave. Unless they make it a point to walk down the hall and come hang out with me....which happens quite often. Probably more than it should. But you won't hear me complaining. Hmm lets see, I had an alright weekend. Hung out with a good friend on Sunday. Friday night, hmm, I was just chillin at home. Same thing for Saturday, until about 2am, then I went over to my cousin's house, cause we were both bored, so we figured it was better to be bored together. lol I came home around 6am Sunday and went to bed, only to get up around 10:30am Sunday. And now here I am at work, destined not to leave until 2am. Oh well, I'll deal, maybe I'll get a visit from a co-worker or two

Well, I'm about to get on my soapbox and rant about somethings that just tick me off. I'm sure I'll step on a lot of toes in the process. So, if you don't have thick skin, you had better not read this blog. I'm not pulling any punches or holding anything back. Whatever comes to my mind as I type will be what I speak on. Remember...THESE ARE MY OPINIONS, and everyone has an opinion. Its just that some people don't ever express what or how they feel about things. From important issues, to things that are utterly senseless. Shall we begin....

When someone asks you what you like to do for fun, and you reply with, "I like to smoke (weed) and I like to drink.", your ass needs some serious help. Why do people join dating sites or sites where the aim is the actually meet someone IN THE FLESH, just to join??? Where is the friggin logic in that? And with the prices some of these site charge for a membership, that's like buying a leather coat, just to buy it. You have no intentions of wearing it...you brought just to buy it. How stupid is that. Why do guys who think they are "hip" or "fly" wear their jeans so that it looks like they have a pile of SHIT in their pants?

How come when black people that don't use slang when they speak (especially on the phone) get accused of sounding white. Like me for example...I get asked that question quite often, usually from other black people. Which makes me respond as such..."Why do you ask?". Then they'll always reply with, cause you talk so proper. Which just really irks me to hear someone say. So, I'll reply with, "oh, black people can't talk properly?". I swear if I never hear "ya know what I'm sayin" or "that's what's up" again...it'll be too soon. How in the Blue hell can I know what you're saying when you keep saying "ya know what I'm saying" every three words. Dammit, be original. Come up with your own saying or catchphrase. Stop copying pop stars...

Why do people buy new light bulbs? You should have to buy standard household light bulbs ONCE. All you gotta do is buy the kind you already have in your house and when they blow out, clean them up, put them back in the box the new ones came in and take them back to the store and say they didn't work. How in the world will they know if they worked or not???

Why is the federal government spending precious tax payer money on whether or not gay marriage should be legal or not. I can think of a hundred other more pressing issues, rather than if Adam wants to marry Steve, or is Jenny wants to marry Mary. Thats why we Democrats (yeah, I'm a Democrat and proud of it, but I'm a CONSERVATIVE Democrat) lost the last presidential election. The Republicans said, dammit, we hate gays. We Democrats should've said, then we'll embrace the gay community, instead we didn't say shit. We need to find a damn backbone, or we'll lose the next election too.

Time to really piss people off now....guess what. There is only ONE GOD, and it doesn't matter what you call him. Yahwew, Jehovah, Zeus, Aten, Allah, Budha, Ahura Mazda its doesn't matter. Newsflash, one religion isn't better than the other just cause it is accepted by more people. If Wicca or Paganism was practiced by the majority of people in the world, then people would look upon Christianity as being wrong or blasphemous. PERSONALLY, I think organized religion is for the weak-minded. Those of you who need to be told what to do, instead of trying to find your own path of spiritual enlightenment to God.

People its the year 2005, if you spend more than an hour online each week, your ass needs to have a picture available to send to someone. Whether it be on a website, stored in your email or on your yahoo profile. There is no sense in not having one, hell even if you don't have a scanner, digital camera or a webcam. You can take a picture or hell a roll of film for that matter to any developer nowadays, and get it back in a digital format. So, I just don't understand, how you can NOT have one.

The death penalty...keep it and stop keeping people on death row for 10 and 15 years. Hell, ya gotta go, ya gotta go!

How come we single working people with no dependents get hit the hardest tax wise on every paycheck? I know the vast majority of people on AFDC assistance don't abuse the system, and are trying to better themselves. I'm referring to the ones that have no intention of doing anything to better themselves and wanna live off of OUR money. As far as they are concerned, they can go to hell in a handbasket.

Its beer-thirty, I gotta go. I'll be back later to rant some more.

Hey, I'm back!!! Anyway, I hope everyone had a great New Year's Eve celebration...trust me, you didn't have to do much to top mine. I was just chillin at home. And now, you all can guess where I am currently...where do I seem to be 90% of my time...AT WORK. Although its not as bad as it sounds. Working for Game Systems, Inc. is pretty cool. Maybe cause its an easy job. Lets see, what did I do today. Hmm, well I got up around 8:30 after finally going to sleep around 2:15am. As I often do, I skipped breakfast, just had some coffee. Then I got back on RE:4 (Resident Evil 4, if you don't know), I played and advanced along at a pretty good rate, finishing another chapter today. I think I played for about 2 or 3 hours. I know I stopped about a minute before the Panther's game came on. I must say, I was happy with the outcome of today's game. As we whooped the Atlanta Falcons, 44 to 11. Of course by then its 4 o'clock. So I get me something to eat, and as you can guess being black and being in the south it was Collard Greens and Black Eyed Peas today. Some silly superstition that the greens represent money for the new year and the black eyed peas represent luck...anywho. After I ate I had me a nice piece of strawberry cream cake. The of course its time to get in the shower and get all fresh and so clean for work. Ladies, you should've been there with me. So, i make sure I have everything, and its in the car and off to work...which is where I am right now....boy what a thrilling day this was. lol

Hey, just a quick stop in to say, I had the most incredible time yesterday. I spent most of the day (the better part of 9 hours) with a great friend of mine. So, I'm just a paradox today. I'm still like over-joyed, ecstatic, euphoric, jovial, beaming etc., yet at the same time I'm melancholy, gloomy, sullen and morose. WHY??? Cause I miss my friend, that's why. Anywho, I'm at work currently, not doing much, at the moment. And its such a nice day outside, I wished i was outside, instead of in here. But alas, gotta make some money. Can't live anywhere for free. No what I mean. Oh, I purchased the new Resident Evil 4, exclusively for GameCube last night...didn't play any last night. I played some this morning, before I came to work...thus far I can see why it got a rating of 9.6 outta a possible 10. The game is pretty f*cking awesome so far. I'll have more to report about it as I play through the game. Well, its lunch time; and I skipped breakfast this morning. All I had was a chai latte...if you've never tried Spiced Chai with a little milk. OMFG, you really need to. And those of you who don't drink tea....you still have to try this...its made up of rich black tea, heavy milk, a combination of various spices and a NATURAL sweetener. Ok, I'm gonna go get me something to eat, I may come back later and write some more, most likely after I get home from work, and then it would still be, just before I go to bed. Xan, out

oh well, here i sit at work once again, bored outta my friggin mind. although i did talk to my friend for like 2hours and talking to her always makes my day better. anywho, i don't get to leave this damn purgatory until 2am, BUT luckily i am OFF tomorrow. as to what i'll do in my time off, that i'm not sure about, we'll see what comes up. (crosses fingers)

Well, its two days after Christmas...and I must say I had a really good Christmas. Not because I got what I wanted, that didn't matter, cause this is like the first year that I REALLY didn't want anything. SO, when I did see the stuff I got, I guess that made it a little more special. Overall my whole weekend was great. Oh, i know this maybe a little late, but here ya go: Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzaa, and Happy Yule, I think that about covers everyone. So, I don't go into work until 6 today, but considering I have to drive nearly 20 miles one way I have to leave home no later than 5:10...luckily I'm off tomorrow. Tomorrow should be a great day, indeed...and NO, I'm not telling you why. ;-)

hey all! how is everyone? I'm doing pretty good, just ready for the holidays to be over with. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a Scrooge, just ready for things to settle back down to normal. Mainly cause I miss hanging out with my friends....one friend in particular. But as we know this is the time of the year where family gets more time then your close friends...cause lets be honest...Your best friend gets a lot of time....true or false?
So, I have just over a week to go, then things can become normal again. Still waiting on a present to arrive from Japan. Hopefully it'll get here shortly after Christmas. Had and interesting day at work today. New systems were installed yesterday and hell, outta 30 computers it only worked on 9. So, as you can guess I was busy all day. But I got it all straightened out before I left.
I'm in the process of learning more about Anime and CosPlay. Two things I plan to devote a whole lot of time to next year. As well as Manga. That's what friends do, learn what each other likes, and learn about it to strengthen that friendship. Or at least that's what I do...sort of like Grateful Dead fans. If you don't know what a "Dead Head" does, let me explain.
You know how you buy a CD, say by your favorite artist; and they may have an appearance by another artist on a song. Well, "Dead Heads" go and buy CDs by that artist just to better understand the collaboration that artist did with the Dead. That's how I approach true friendship. I wanna know what you like and are into, and the better I understand it, the better I'll understand you. NO, I'm not forgetting actual interaction with each other, which is probably the best way to get closer to someone.
Here it is after 9pm again and I haven't eaten dinner...I seriously need to stop doing that... Guess I'll get serious about that after new year's. and no, I'm not using that cliche so many people use...."see me after the first of the year"
Ok, I'm gonna bounce outta here and get something to eat....what, I have no Earthly idea or ideal (your pick lol)

Well, I'm off work today. Not that I'm doing much of anything today. Although it did start off AWESOME. I received a call from Yahiko first thing this morning. So, anytime I hear from her, my day is instantly better. She's the jam in my jelly roll. LOL, I'm just kidding, but she is the most incredible person I have ever met. As a matter of fact, I just left her about an hour ago. So, now I sit here at home, pretty much chillin. I just moved into this place last weekend, and already have everything unpacked and what not. So, I really don't have much of anything to do. I wanna go see King Kong, but I seriously doubt I'll see it today or alone. I think I'll take Yahiko with me, that is if she wants to go. Anywho, I'm gonna go and optimize my computer now. So, if I'll catch you all on the flip side.